Post by joohyun on Jan 17, 2005 18:57:41 GMT -5
as some of you guys know (at least the people who came to hope before last summer).... i have an older brother named jooyoung who is in freshman year of college... well... up until about his junior year, i've always looked up to him.. cuz he was like.. such a strong christian before... he was praise team leader at our old church in NC, and president of the youth group and everything... (i think the pastor he had until the middle of his sophomore year was his REALLY good mentor.... but he left...) and entering his junior year, he just started falling... staying with the wrong crowd, playing pool all night, picking up smoking, and in his senior year (after we came to NJ) , picking up drinking, playing computer games ALL DAY AND NIGHT (literally), working ALL NIGHT at baden baden, skipping school, sleeping in class (not just dozing, but REALLY sleeping with his head on his arms)... as a result, his GPA went from like.. 3.7 in his sophomore year, down to like 2.6?...... which is why he couldn't even get into Rutgers cuz he was so LAZY and turned in his stupid college apps at the last minute... (state schools usually have first-come-first-served basis...)SUNY albany was like.. the 2nd best one he got accepted into (the best one was a private college.. and my mom and dad just couldn't handle the fee of sending him to a private college...... even when he's in SUNY, they're having a hard time coming up with tuition fees and registration fees... but anyway, this is about my brother...)... yeah.. and even after he went to college where my mom and dad hoped the days away from home would make him a bit more mature, he just... continued to do everything... he says he goes to church... but i don't think he's learning anything... it's no use going to church if our faith doesn't grow... and like.. even over the winter break.. he's been causing worry in our family.. like bringing in girls, a guy who literally lived at our house, and even.. stealing a card from my mom's wallet.. just to get money out.. even when he was already working at baden baden again...... i personally have no idea what he does with all taht money... and these days.. i find myself about to cross the line... and follow the path that he chose...... but this is still about my brother... who i would ask of anyone... to just pray for... because i know that i can always come back to God, but his future with God is VERY UNCERTAIN... and it's like.. having a non-christian in a christian family... so.. i just wanna ask everyone to pray for my brother to come back to God...... sorry if this note made you depressed..
